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The Gift of Fearlessness

By Bhavanjot Kaur

While I certainly do not claim to be an expert in numerology, I believe my fascination with it has awakened a deeper understanding of the messages that numbers can bring when we are aware and open to receiving them. Numbers can show up and offer a new perspective to our life stories; can communicate magically in this deep mystery in which we live; and perhaps can even lessen the burden, and serve as a means to turn fear into strength, courage and faith.

“There are two special time zones, when you have to enrich your mind: one in the morning, from 4 a.m. to 8 a.m., and one in the evening, from 4 p.m. to 8 p.m. These are natural moments that have a tide of energy within you and without. The sun and Earth have a special relationship and angle at those times that affect your mind and your energy.”
-Yogi Bhajan

I recently drove past the pond where I fell through the ice as a small child. I was estimated to have been under the water for five minutes, and when I was rescued by a diver, I had no pulse and was not breathing. I was resuscitated on the scene. I still get goosebumps when I drive by the pond. When I drove by on this particular day, though, I happened to notice the houses on either side of the pond and more importantly, the numbers on these houses. I was shocked, to see for the first time, that one house was "44" and the other was "88."

In the simplest terms that fit in my world, the number 4 has come to represent the heart or the fourth chakra and 8 has come to represent infinity or the auric eighth chakra. My daughter also happened to be born on 4-8-11. The two 1's almost like two houses standing on either side of each other also representing union and mastery. I like to think this was a message from up above to let me know that I was divinely protected even then, and that perhaps my daughter’s soul awaiting to join me was assuring I would understand some day that her hand was in mine all along.

“The soul has a journey and it is predestined. It takes longitude and latitude to be born. It selects its geography, its space, and the protective, nurturing essence of its parents and its environments. All that happens in the first seven years is set.”
-Yogi Bhajan

I write often about my daughter’s journey with cancer. There are many stories within the experience that I continue to feel inspired to share. Three's were a big number for us during her treatment and I recall a friend of mine saying that 3 represented God or Christ consciousness, which for many reasons brought me great comfort.

While she was two and a half years old when she was diagnosed, she turned 3 in the midst of treatment. I was also 33 years old during part of her treatment. I recall her getting measured and weighed during this same time, and she was 33 pounds and 3’3” tall. The oncologists projected a treatment schedule of 11 consecutive cycles of radiation and 33 weeks of chemotherapy. I would often chant the Protection Mantra 3 times around her body and around her chemotherapy bags that were being administered into her body.

The number 3, again in the simplest terms for me, represents the third chakra, which happens to be the solar plexus or power center. The numbers during this experience gave me a sense of divine protection and security. It gave me strength and power in an experience that left me feeling powerless many times over.

 “If you are given a gift, you have to pray. You have to. There is no option. If you don’t pray for the gift, you get a big load. Then you pay through the karma. If you pray, that is the amount of energy for x-amount of gift.”
-Yogi Bhajan

I had a private numerology session with my teacher very early on in my practice, but I had not checked back in with my numbers in quite some time. Writing this blog inspired me to do a little research and I found a very succinct lecture on numerology from Yogi Bhajan here. I also looked my numerology chart up here and I was reminded that my gift in this life time is the Gift of 8, which is fearlessness.

It seems I have had to go into my depths of despair to find my strength, into my deepest fears to find my courage, and into my greatest doubts to find my faith. It has been in that overcoming and rising again and again that has given me this sense of freedom and fearlessness that fills me with the deepest gratitude for the many prayers that have been and continue to be answered.

I believe this gift of fearlessness is to be shared and that each person has the ability to access that courage with the support of Kundalini Yoga, mantra and prayer. I believe we can all be brave in facing our life challenges and in our endeavor to live our true selves in the fullest and most authentic expression without judgment—fearlessly.

“The purpose of prayer is to tie into Infinity. When a zero ties into Infinity, it becomes Infinity. Infinity means ‘all powerful.’ It only means you are not scared, you are not afraid. When you project your fear through prayer with Infinity and multiply and tune in, your fear goes away. When your fear goes away, the divine takes over.”
-Yogi Bhajan

I spent many years of my life listening to Bob Marley. I was always fond of the song ‘Three Little Birds.’ I can recall singing it to my daughter in the early days and weeks after she was born, as well as the faint whisper of song from my throat, ‘Don’t worry about a thing,’ sitting in the hospital bed next to her as she faced cancer. It seemed a promise and a mantra of sorts to infuse my heart and hers with the words of hope: ‘Cause every little thing gonna be alright."

My daughter and I have listened to mantras since before she was born, but we tuned into other music on occasion at various times throughout her life that she labeled 'other music' whereas the mantras were called 'mantras' or 'kids music' by her definition. She has a keen ear and picked up on the difference in frequencies and vibrations of the mantras verses other music very early on in her life.

One day I played Bob Marley's “Three Little Birds” rather than my voice singing it to her. She heard it and immediately asked, "What mantra is this?" I smiled as it confirmed in my heart that she could actually feel the difference in the energy and vibrations. She could feel the love and the peace in this music in her neutral and very aware spirit.

My daughter is now thankfully three years in remission—yet another 3. As I was driving down the road this morning, three goldfinches flew right in front of my car—three little heavenly golden birds joyfully and fearlessly flying—another number three reference, and perhaps a little message from the Universe that every little thing is going to be alright because it always has been and always will be.

I had a moment of fear and duality in sharing my story in a blog about how numbers have influenced my world. I had a thought that maybe I was not equipped for this topic. Then it occurred to me that when the three carefree birds flew in front of me, they were actually teaching me that the point is not to fly or sing our song all knowingly and perfectly, but instead to fly freely and sing our song fearlessly. Like my yoga teachers often say, “Yoga is not a perfect, it is a practice.”

“You have two enemies: fear and duality. Say “No.” That’s it. When you are afraid, just say, “No” and God will take care of you from that minute onward. I’ll vouch for it. And if you have duality, He’ll create a bridge. Trust Him. Dwell in Him and be gracious. Tomorrow’s world is hoping for you to come as saviors.”
-Yogi Bhajan

Photo by Sterling Photography

Bhavanjot Kaur is the owner and founder of Hamsa Healing Arts located in Centerbrook, CT. Bhavanjot is a Kundalini yoga teacher and Radiant Child Yoga Teacher. Bhavanjot is a Reiki Master practitioner and Teacher, Craniosacral therapy practitioner, Raindrop therapy massage practitioner and she also offers sound therapy with a 32" Paiste Symphonic Gong. Bhavanjot is a consultant for essential oils, medicinal mushrooms and CBD oil. She is mother to a delightful seven-year-old little girl who overcame a rare childhood kidney cancer, which inspires her work with Lucy's Love Bus and the Connecticut Cancer Foundation.